contemplation…

I want to go far away somewhere, on a beach or something.

I don’t want to sound whiney but I don’t think people quite understand how hard nurses work. Majority of nurses anyway.

I come home from my shifts everyday feeling absolutely drained/achey/tired/groggy…sometimes happy lol but mostly fed up. 

We get slated by relatives/slapped/pinched/shouted at/abused/violated.

Fair enough we do get thanks and recognition but nowhere near to what we should.
I’m just seriously contemplating why I’m doing nursing and chatting to my sister has made me think if I really want to do it as a career.

I do love it, so so much but, I have no social life at all when I’m on placement. It’s depressing. I’m a creative person and I want to be outdoors taking pictures and editing them, drawing things, writing songs, playing piano or my ukulele but as soon as I get home, all I want to do is sleep. I can’t remember the last time I wore NORMAL clothes. I’m either in my uniform or in my pyjamas. 

That’s the one thing I hate…we’re not able to express ourselves with our appearance at work. I just about get away with my nose piercing lol. I love fashion too much to be stuck in a uniform for the rest of my working life.

What is LIFE?!